Where is she and where are we?

The Momma I met walking 18th street with her baby has left town. Her time at the shelter was up. I helped her pack up my van to go and meet her boyfriend. They went to a small hotel in a small rural town to stay for the next two weeks. Before she left I introduced her to an adoption attorney. She had told me she had made up her mind to place her baby for adoption. She met with the attorney and told the attorney she did NOT want to place her baby with us...because she now "knows" us and knows where we live. She doesn't want to know any of that information about the potential family.
How did I feel about that? Well, honestly...we had been praying for clarity. Domestic adoption was not / is not our interest. But we wanted to be obedient if that was what God was calling us to. So we prayed and prayed and prayed. And we said, "if this is what you want, we are open to it." We know God loves all the children and who are we to say..."no we only want a child from Africa." That (in my opinion) is closed minded. Momma has lots of financial needs NOW that Brett and I could not provide NOW for her. But the attorney has potential adoptive parents that can meet her immediate needs. We feel that even though her reasons are different from our reasons...it was all God's work. We feel we were a light for her in a very dark period of her life. We are still in contact with her...as much as texting will allow. She knows where we live if she needs us. Its a sad situation. We pray for her that she can make wise decisions with her life.
Now where are we? We are working on our international homestudy.
How did I feel about that small voice asking me if I would be open to something else if he had another plan for our adoption? (see previous post). I struggled with that for awhile. I know it was the voice of God speaking to my heart. I think God wanted to know if Brett and I would be obedient. Not as extreme, but God has "tested" obedience before...read the story of Abraham and Isaac. I think we got confirmation by her choosing to place with another family even though we were willing. And we most definitely got confirmation in our own hearts that we are in love with Africa and her orphans more and more everyday. Doing the homestudy opens your eyes to the passion that burns in your heart for orphans. We have such a strong desire to continue our African adoption. Unless God closes this door and directs our attention elsewhere...we are walking forward with full anticipation and excitement!!!!!